I was nervous.
The night before saw little sleep with me tossing and turning about in bed, thinking. Would I disappoint you? Would you laugh at my inexperience? I didn't know you well enough to be comfortable around you yet I had to see you.
I made the extra effort to wake up early so that I could spend a little more time dressing up. Not quite sure if you liked green apples, but I thought its fragrance would invoke a sense of innocence, so I dabbed a little perfume on my wrists and a little on my neck, right below my ears.
The ride on the mrt felt like eternity. My heart was beating in anticipation, I had read all about it in women's magazines and now, I was finally gonna experience it. First hand.
When I arrived, I didn't know what to do. You gently led me by hand, sat me down and asked me all sorts of personal questions, I tried to appear as cool and calm as I could, but to no avail. I guess you could sense the anxiety in me so you told me to lie down and relax. I did just that. I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing, taking long deep breaths. You could tell this was my first time and assured me that it wasn't going to hurt...then you started to pull my knees apart...
It was all over before I knew it. We barely broke a sweat in the aircon room and it kinda hurt a little. But I guess that was to be expected. I wanted you to tell me that everything was gonna be okay, but you didn't. You told me to put my clothes on and that breakfast was waiting outside.
You had work to finish, so I ate alone. Milk and cereal. It tasted bland.
After what seemed like ages, you finally came out of your room. I remembered what you said...
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"Miss Khoo, that's all for your medical check up, you may leave now."
The night before saw little sleep with me tossing and turning about in bed, thinking. Would I disappoint you? Would you laugh at my inexperience? I didn't know you well enough to be comfortable around you yet I had to see you.
I made the extra effort to wake up early so that I could spend a little more time dressing up. Not quite sure if you liked green apples, but I thought its fragrance would invoke a sense of innocence, so I dabbed a little perfume on my wrists and a little on my neck, right below my ears.
The ride on the mrt felt like eternity. My heart was beating in anticipation, I had read all about it in women's magazines and now, I was finally gonna experience it. First hand.
When I arrived, I didn't know what to do. You gently led me by hand, sat me down and asked me all sorts of personal questions, I tried to appear as cool and calm as I could, but to no avail. I guess you could sense the anxiety in me so you told me to lie down and relax. I did just that. I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing, taking long deep breaths. You could tell this was my first time and assured me that it wasn't going to hurt...then you started to pull my knees apart...
It was all over before I knew it. We barely broke a sweat in the aircon room and it kinda hurt a little. But I guess that was to be expected. I wanted you to tell me that everything was gonna be okay, but you didn't. You told me to put my clothes on and that breakfast was waiting outside.
You had work to finish, so I ate alone. Milk and cereal. It tasted bland.
After what seemed like ages, you finally came out of your room. I remembered what you said...
...
...
...
...
"Miss Khoo, that's all for your medical check up, you may leave now."
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